The following are the "rules" or "guidelines" of being an AP (attachment parent)
1. Birth bonding
2. Breastfeeding
3. Babywearing
4. Bedding close to baby
5. Belief in the language value of your baby's cry
6. Beware of baby trainers
7. Balance
- AP is an approach, rather than a strict set of rules. It's actually the style that many parents use instinctively. Parenting is too individual and baby too complex for there to be only one way. The important point is to get connected to your baby, and the baby B's of attachment parenting help. Once connected, stick with what is working and modify what is not. You will ultimately develop your own parenting style that helps parent and baby find a way to fit – the little word that so economically describes the relationship between parent and baby.
- AP is responsive parenting. By becoming sensitive to the cues of your infant, you learn to read your baby's level of need. Because baby trusts that his needs will be met and his language listened to, the infant trusts in his ability to give cues. As a result, baby becomes a better cue-giver, parents become better cue-readers, and the whole parent-child communication network becomes easier.
The above is all copied from this website by Dr. Sears. I want to address them each in turn and see where I fall on the AP parenting scale.
1. Birth bonding- I had an informed c-section, but I got to hold Eli as soon as I was able to sit up at all. I don't feel like I got to hold him very long. I don't remember. I know I did get to nurse him in the recovery room, and that was pretty successful. I also feel like this is the most practical of the 7, because unless there is some unforeseen, uncontrollable circumstance there is no reason for a baby and a mama to be separated immediately after birth. So I give myself an A for that one.
2. Breastfeeding-Eli has never had formula, and is still breastfeeding at 14 months old so I give myself an A on that part of it... but I know a lot of AP parents that read that as "breastfeeding on demand" which worked when Eli was tiny, but now if I nursed on demand everytime he asked, my boobs would hang out all day everyday because he likes to latch on for a few seconds then run off. Its like a "Squirrel!" moment (from the Disney movie, UP!???" anyway, I have had to go to setting limits and enforcing manners when it comes to breastfeeding. One friend of mine put it well, she said "Its the first set of table manners they learn". I like it. So a A- for this one.
3. Babywearing-I love babywearing. Eli is high touch most of the time and refuses to ride quietly in a stroller or basket at the store, so in order to shop peacefully I dont mind wearing him. Its also nice to have baby cuddles :o) the only negative about this is my back HURTS right now. Also, as he starts walking more he is constantly up and down, but I think thats probably normal. I give myself an A
4. Bedding close to baby-this is where I start to fail. For the first 6ish months of Eli's life we had an Arm's reach co-sleeper. My mom bought it for me on the way home from the hospital because I couldn't imagine leaving this tiny squish alone in his room. We slept OK for about the first 4 months. He woke frequently to nurse, and since I was hell bent on succeeding at breastfeeding, I nursed him every time he made a peep. Then we discovered side-lying nursing. I thought "Oh! This is great, I can sleep and nurse at the same time!!" Worst. Mistake. Ever. All it did was teach him that he can and should be latched on all night long, and I never got any real sleep that way. I'd doze off into this sort of trance like state, but could never enter real, deep sleep with Eli attached to me. So at 6 months we tried moving him back to his bed. Epic fail. I cant count the hours I spent in his room rocking him or holding him because I was a good AP mama, I couldn't let him cry it out! (CIO) I bought Elizabeth Pantleys No Cry Sleep Solution and tried that for about a month. I have never been more tired in my life. The program has good merits, and for a less determined child it might actually work, but for Eli it was the same amount of waking but now I was out of bed to deal with it. So back in our bed he went until he was about 8 months old and I had had it. He was up every 45 minutes looking for the boob. I finally gave in and put him in his bed for one night and made him cry it out. I sat on the phone with my mom, bawling my eyes out while he cried for an hour. We checked on him every 10 minutes or so, but it gutted me. I hated it. I dont know if our sleeping problems would have been solved if I had been more dedicated to co sleeping or if I had given in and let him CIO. I'll never know.
Fast forward to a year. He has been sleeping in his crib now for the past 4ish months, but still waking frequently. He has been cutting teeth so he has been back and forth from my bed to his. Some nights he sleeps fine in my bed, sleeping 4-5 hours at a time. Other nights he tosses and turns and talks and giggles and wants to lay on top of me, and screams to nurse and so on. Its frustrating. I wish he would just settle in my bed and sleep because we would both be much happier. Sometimes I get touched out and extremely sore from Eli sleeping right up against me, but if he would actually sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, I'd be all for it. Right now my mom has agreed to get up with Eli from 9-3. Which seems long, but I truly believe Eli is capable of sleeping that long. I am considering Dr. Jay Gordons' method of night weaning too...but thats another post. So a C- for co-sleeping.
5. Belief in the language value of your baby's cry-with the exception of that one night, I have never let Eli CIO. I love cuddling him, nursing him, and spending time with him. BUT I was also under the impression that babies who are raised AP dont cry as much because there is no reason to. Their cries are always met, so there is no reason to cry, right? Wrong. Eli cries more than any baby I've ever met. He has been checked over, and there is nothing medically wrong with him. He just cries a lot. I dont understand it and I feel like a failure because of it. He is an intense, demanding baby that requires an immense amount of time and patience. I am frustrated because I feel drained, and he still needs so much from me. I always hesitate to let Eli cry unattended because I am afraid there is always something wrong. Sometimes I don't know what is wrong that night, but in the morning I see that he is cutting a new tooth, or is really gassy, or he's cold or hungry or whatever. BUT my patience at night is wearing thin. I am so incredibly burned out. Its been at least 14 months since I have slept through the night...probably longer than that because the last few months of my pregnancy were hell. So a B+ for that.
6. Beware of baby trainers-I see this. Ferber or Weisblueth would have you leave your baby to cry himself to sleep at 4 months or so. I can't honestly see that working. I have to say I have been tempted but have never had the heart for it. So I get an A.
7. Balance- I can say straight up front I get a big fat F for this one. I have no time for anything else. I frantically scramble to get homework done if Eli goes to sleep before he wakes up. I drag my tired body of out bed and rush to shower before he wakes up. My whole life seems structured around his sleeping and waking patterns. I dont know if thats normal or not but I can honestly say I feel exhausted. I am tired of not sleeping more than 3 hours at a time on a good night. I have no time for myself or friends or my husband. My mom has agreed to help me with Eli over night more because she can see how drained I am. I am starting to feel resentful and angry. I don't like feeling that way about my child. I feel like I have done EVERYTHING according to the stupid AP parenting philosophy and I am still failing. I try to meet his needs and be sensitive to what he needs and it never seems like its enough. I dont know what to do at this point.
Overall the philosophy of attachment parenting seems sound, but I have to wonder if I am responsible for Eli's neediness and demanding personality. If I had done something differently would he sleep better? Would I? I dont know.
